that stumbled on me.

380th post ! :D

things don't go the way we want sometimes,
i know it doesn't; but now i know
we learn from our failures, our mistakes.
never to let that get the better of us just as yet.

the love was so fiery and hyper,
all saying intimately of their true love;
but in the end, something just comes
and stabbing one deep into the heart.

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indeed friday is the day i'll never forget, really.
particularly that night, that night never be forgotten;
but definitely not for a good reason possible.
and i'm indeed serious about it.

... so you all are thinking,
what actually happened ?

for school it was screwed; really.
my trace and transition presentation was a blow to remember -
a final presentation, but the most screwed one too.
i felt that this was my worst presentation ever, in 2 years in poly.
so, when the teacher told us everything about it;
it just shot right at my head -
like a john f kennedy headshot !

during the last presentation for the first batch,
marcus totally rocked his group's presentation;
it was darn cool, seriously :)



when it all ended, i just walked off;
neglecting everything in the world.
i wanted a train ride home to myself,
everything and anything could go out of control, my way.
but it didn't get any better for i've been so used to controlling.
as a result, no tears flowed and didn't get any better.

home was the place to be, but i had to head somewhere ...
to meet regina and some other people,
and her boyfriend, sargar -
nevertheless, to my astonishment ..
he was hot, seriously.

anyways, i decided to meet some friends to go chillout -
so met regina at changi village road with germaine;
and indeed it was sure an ulu, deserted place -
i was filled with suspicion; i wondered what was actually up.



in the end, it was actually something called - pubbing.
we drank until regina blacked out, and fell down.
luckily, the others didn't get drunk at all.
sargar got stunned, and i could tell he was really at a loss.
he didn't know what to do, totally speechless.

something stirred after that, soon enough, faster than usual.
our suspicion arose, and indeed to our surprise;
he did things unfavourable to regina and yeah,
things occurred after that which i will not want to continue of.

she cried her heart out like someone died;
she poured her feelings like a kettle pouring water;
she just said everything she could.
she tried to get him to stand by her;
but it all failed, i guess.

regina drunk, we headed home late, beyond midnight.
for a period of time, i did get over the presentation sadness;
but for another moment, something stumbled upon me to fall again.
i know, i can't let failure be my understudy, but the teacher.

till then, we homed - finally.
and i fell dead at 3plusam that night,
i couldn't get over what happened;
until now.

it was just to teach me, to learn from mistakes.